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Friday, January 26th, 2007
2:40 pm	And a new day dawns sorry for the lack of updates but here goes me trying again well life has certainly become more interesting My car failed inspection. So what you might say? so... thats the deal braker. we arn't putting anymore money into my hunk of junk. So with out a car I can't go to work. But thats all part of the plan, with out the job I'll finaly be broke enough to qualify for medical assistance. I can get my lungs looked at (the cough hasn't left) I can get my ankle looked at, I can get on a therapy program for my weight, and I can finaly return to treatment for depression... I know it's for the best but losing my income (though my mom is sure my doctor will have me go on dissability) and my mobility is hard to take (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
1:13 am	from bad to worse Most people have already heard this on the forums I go to... so I'm going to just copy the posts I made from there to here if thats okay... I've been gone for a bit I was away at AC I'd ment to post a con report... I realy did. and I will later. I had a great time. I ment to tell you all about the great I dea I had to make a growling, moving shoulder puppet, and how a publisher at the con aproached me about the cook book. I ment to post the story I wrote sitting in the new york bus stop. but I don't think I can not for a while anyway *is crying now* It seems my dad collapsed this thursday, he'd suffered a stroke and has been in the hospital since. My family didn't tell me cause they didn't want to ruin the convention for me. I felt so useless, and stupid. He ccouldn't talk, he barely could move, and he ccouldn't eat. He'd fought so hard these last few years get his life back and then this happens. and I was off running around, goofing off, cracking jokes about trying to buy some art I can show my parents. and then at 8:50 pm est on june 20th my Daddy, Micheal Howard McNeal, died at the age of 47. It was a blood clot, and the doctors say it was nearly instant. My daddy was a fighter though he fought all his life. When the army discharged him on medical grounds leaving him to sick to work, he fought the goverment and won. he struggled with scladerma, epelepsy, migrains and host of other issues but he always seemed like he was winning. He snached back precous moments of life and got to do many wonderful things. He took my mom to some of the most beautiful places on the planet and they were happy. He's done fighting now, he past all the pain and all the hurt. I know he didn't want to go and I know he didn't want to stop fighting but his body just couldn't carry him any further. I didn't get a chance to say hello or good bye to my dad today. The hospital had to operate to insert a feeding tub and told us he wouldn't be awake till tomarrow. so after 5 hours in the hospital I came home and woke up to this. I may not have been the type of son my dad expected but I know he loved me no matter what and I love him and always will. Happy fucking fathers day ehh bunny... Sorry... I'm probably not going to be on for a while here or Aim. Sorry to be a downer good night Current Mood: sad (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 10th, 2006
12:50 am	Trying to relax Hey hey all... I had a rough night and thought I'd vent alittle bit... well not actualy the night but here goes.. on my way into work it started snowing... whisch is annoying it was suposed to stop that but ehh it's maine... then I get out at 8 o clock and start home... around half an hour later I'm half way home, trying to keep my speed down with six jerks on my bumper trying to push me to go faster... I hit an icy patch and started to slid. I went off the road, quite far off the road I hit a large patch of saplings just missed a telephone pole and large tree... no damage to my car and the wrecker managed to get me back on the road, cost me most of my paycheck but the guy was nice and cut me a deal... I'm a little shakey right now, just coming down... Current Mood: distressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
10:48 am	Well I didn't actualy mean to post this but I might as well make it into a new entry so I'll post some new pics of my cats with my new camera This is my fat tub of love Ebony Look at how big she is on that page from the paper This is the embodiment of all that is evil Amber is the the cat satan would own Here is Salem He's the sweetest cat ever he loves everyone. This is Tom He's currently in his favorite chair, you can tell it's his favorite cause of how comfortable he is Current Mood: dorky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 31st, 2005
11:51 pm	Lets start the new year off on a high note Well lets see how are things lately... My sister and her boyfreind have set a wedding date September 23... So yay for them *giggles* Ohh and a freind of mine from work is setting me up on a date... *giggles* his name is Ben and he's 23, tall, blonde and Kim says he's realy cute... My mom likes him too. *bounces* Hopefully I'll be able to quite my job soon too My dick head of a boss gave me this huge lector today... I can't wait to get out of there Ohh well here' to anouther year Current Mood: bouncy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 17th, 2005
12:22 pm	The Damn Season Damn damn damn I'm starting to hate holidays nothing good ever comes of them I've got all my shopping don, cept for Foo and her boy, and then I'm not sure what to get them. The holidays just seem to bring up so many bad memories. I mean this no SO for me to spend time thinking about this year, hell I'm still bitter over Foxy and the freaking cell phone. Also I'm expected to make food for several people I realy don't like. Just like thanksgiving... I'm not christian so the whole religous signifigance means zilch, I'll do my own thing after everyone goes to sleep but still I used to love the season as an excuse to give gifts and hang out with folks I liked. I just can't get in the mood, bad stuff happens on ho;idays... I'm dreading valintines day in a few months... thats gonna just kill me Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Friday, December 16th, 2005
12:09 pm	The Jobs Well Xmass time again... I've got all my shopping done early... not to hard this year just the family so I got out of it easy. I'm a little worried about work... this xmass eve they have me training some one to do my job. Oh well thats fine I wanted to get out of there anyway. I'm putting in at a collage near by they have some positions open in there kitchen. including a great one I'd kill for... Assistant Baker. My freinds are looking for an apartment too. they told me if they find something they want me to be there room mate. so YAY there. I'm not sure if I'll make it to AC this year. That all might change if I find a new job but till then money is getting tight so I'm not sure... oh well sorry to ramble, but I've got a cold or something and my heads not on straight. Current Mood: sick Current Music: Anarchy by KMFDM (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 3rd, 2005
12:48 pm	Wow look at that Wow would you look that that... I'm terrible at this journal thing arn't I I haven't posted anything since january... Well a quick recap... Foxy is now my X, that cell phone ended up costing me close to $1000 dollars, my dog zues died... damn I have to think of something good that happened Ohh We went to AC again this year and had fun, I mingled met anouther pirate bunny, I handed out cookies and met so many great furs, I've been sending out cookies and candy to lots of people I Admire... for no other reason rthen that and it's making me feel good, I put together a recipie for home made gummi candy, I'm working on my own cook book, Oh and I invented a new type of soda based fudge (It's top secret so promise not to tell the first flavor was rootbeer float) So I guess that me in a nut shell I know I missed alot but frankly I don't like to think about the past year much Ohh I went to the movies with some freinds the other day, that was fun... my first night out in atleast 3 months, we saw Serenity (A awsome pic by the way) then we hit denny's and walmart... I got home around 1:30 Am but it was cool. Current Mood: awake (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
9:36 pm	more bad news seems like thats all I have for everybunny lately *every body being the 2 folks I know who check this place *waves to them and anyone else who found me* But today some time right around noon I lost one of the only members of my extended family I liked. Grampa Charley (He gave me my middle name) He was in the hospital getting some tests on his heart, he had just came from having his sonigram done and was sitting next to Ruth. He suddenly turned purple and collapsed onto the floor. he was dead with in minutes. We're kinda scrambling round here trying to get things done. Most every ones been told so far... (and some of the less scrupuless members of the family are trying to use the event to there advantage) but thats it for now still kinda reeling... Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 8th, 2005
1:44 am	murder LO all just the bunny I managed to get in touch with fox and yes the bunny was freking for nothing just bad timing on my end is all now for the topic we've been having mice in the house... my fualt I just can't get myshit out so I layed down traps found two dead today and a third the cats killed just about 2 or 3 hours ago I trapped anouther one... alive this time It chewed threw the top of a burger king cup I then righted it trappin it in side. I didn't know what to do. If I put it out side it would just get back in, if I gave it to the cats they would torture it and It might get away, I took a trap and put it in a cat carrer then I freed the mouse in it. I checked a few minute later to find that the cats had been tormenting the mouse and set off the trap. I re set the trap and watched this time. I didn't want to do it but if I left it the cats would do it again. 5 minutes later I heard the snap and the scream. It was an old trap and it didn't kill the mouse just pinning it. I couldn't stand it I got my pellet pistol and a hand full of pellets. I've killed before I don't like it but you kill reds to favor greys... It's what you do. So I aimed and fired... the mouse stopped moving after the first shot but the gun isn't strong I shot it 2 more times to make sure. I've cleaned and skinned animals for dad, I killed pigons and squirrels before, but this feels bad I feel like I tortured the mouse. It's only a mouse but I still feel bad *takes down his mouse mask and just stares at it* Current Mood: sick Current Music: Billy Bones (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 1st, 2005
1:10 pm	good and bad news well long over due update first good news on x-mass day my dad callend me up stairs and we had a heart to heart talk seems he's known I was gay for a long time and doesn't care so YAY me and then yesterday at work I stopped by to say high to mom and she told me she realy wants to meet my foxy soo YAY now bad news It's been a few months since I heard from foxy every time I call him at home I seem to get the run around he's sleeping, he's at school, we don't know if he'd home I could just have bad timing so in order to make communcation easier I bought a pair of cell phones on a family plan I expected a call when he opened it on x-mass so far nothing I''ve called the cell number atleast twice a day since then and his home number 4 times each time with predictable results so I asked a freind to call I figured if they are keeping him from me they might let a girl talk to him Jessie got through to him no problem He told her that he got my package and seemed a little put off that I contacted him through a third party I don't know what's going on It seems he's either avoiding me, his parents confiscated the cell, he's too busy to call, or he thought the package I sent 3 weeks ago was the x-mass present and they kept the real one I'm goinh to keep trying but I doubt it'll have much effect Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Friday, December 3rd, 2004
12:54 am	Being silly Hi all I've decided to try and be better about my wieght again... I know I've said that alot but I'm hopping It'll take this time. I'm still rather depressed but I've already oddly taken a first step It's a diet change in order to control my snacking I've been buying packages of peeled baby carrots. I've been eating them like candy lately. (is that too sterotyped? being a bunny and all) the crunch is oddly satisfiying next thing is to start exersising again 2 pounds of carrots in one day and still I want more Current Mood: mellow (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
11:12 am	Hi all well there my x-mass shopping is almost done one last little thing but oddly I don't feel good. It's so depressing the state of the world I hate my life, or lack there of, my freinds are all far away, my love even further. I hate my job, I hate me I have no future no matter what I do I can't focus on classes I try and try and try but I just can't do it, Hell I'm not even allowed to have the american dream no loving hubby for this bunny, no white picket fence with a jkid or two.. It's not allowed here... so no future no present the only good thing is Chris my one happy shining thing, and his parents hate me, and not all who know aprove anyway he's the reason I keep going as long as I can.. with out that, I don't know I've been thinking about giving up I've screwed up my life enough, maybe if I'm not there I won't screw up his life to much more. but before that I should do some cleaning, don't want to leave a mess if I'm gone, and atleast the shoppings done so either way I won't mess up the holidays... Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
11:38 am	I DON'T NEED THIS well its happened my fat ass broke somethng a Chair this time during the rest of the shitr in my fucking life I'm getting screamed at for a chair... well I figure I can shut up this one problem easy I just happen to have enough to cover the chair I give mom the 400 dollars and get screamed at cause I just don't get the message. It's not the money she cares about it's my weight. Well excuse me I KNOW I"M FAT YOU FUCKING TELL ME EVERY GODDESS DAMNED DAY!!! its not like I'm going to forget why can't you just buckle down and loose the wieght Ohhh wow it's that easy is it.. IT's fighting a life time of habbit during one of the most stressfull pioriods of my life Work, School, Car, bills, This lawsuit (fresh rounds with the lawyers this morning) chris's parents Th embarasment of being 25 and still living in my parents basement. yeah thats what makes it so easy the onlky thing I have any control over is what I eat and for a little while that makes me feel good to hell with all of it.. who needs this shit Current Mood: pissed off (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 23rd, 2004
1:28 am	do they hate me this much its been over three months since we were able t get together at AC three months and no word from my love not that I haven't tried I've called several times eery time no matter how late it was he's been at school and accept for this last time they've atleast made the pretense of taking a message (who knows if it actualy got to him) but on this last one I just got a NO and the father hung up on me I've sent letters, and a package but no reply to an of them... hell I can't even be sure he got them I feel like I'm being punished I'm feeling abandoned I'm rather depressed this whoe thing is just crushing the lief out of me, I can't sleep for the nightmares, and I sleep walk through the day I know htey don't like me could they be activly trying to keep me from him, or is he trying to keep away I've called and sent messages to his brother in hopes the round about aproach can egt me some news but no luck yet I hate my life, work school, family shit a law suit and this I got to be happy for one day and I'm paying for it now sorry I'm probably just being paraniod Current Mood: depressed (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
12:39 am	What a Day GAHHHHHH what a friggun day I was my day off but I got a call from work "Would you like to come in from noon to 8" not realy says I so I head upstairs only to get screamed at for turning down hours (I already had 30 this week) Aperntly my folks think I'm a lieing, worthless, lazey good for nothing so in order to aviod the day long guilt trip I head to work and spend 8 hours dealing with moronic customers... all in all it was better then dealing with the folks christ I do't need this shit I got mugged yesterday (well they call it a book story but when they make you pay 130 dollars for 2 books thats mugging to me) I was tenitivly looking into a apartment now if the efficencies are anywear around 200 a month I'm out of this place anyway here I am up past midnight doing luandry I should have finished this morning just so I can have sometihng to wear for work in the morning Current Mood: aggravated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
12:54 pm	Awwww I was cleaning today before work and I stumbled across a small heart shaped box of chocolats foxy gave me at AC *Sighs* I love that boy Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
10:39 pm	Eeep almost forgot My 25 birthday was this Sunday yay bunny is another year older and got to spend all weekend at friggen work, no pressents to tired to make a cake and all alone YAY what fun I think I'm going to bed now Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
10:34 pm	it make my stomache queezy just thinking about it I've been thinking of comming out to my dad I'm pretty sure he already knows I'm gay but it's still a scarey thought I was thinking of doing it visualy showing dad some piccies from ac then having the last one in the pile be foxy (realy wishes that piccy I took of him in bed didj't have my thumb on the lens)... then when he looking at that one I'll smile and ask what he thinks of him, then if he says something positive I' say "Good cause thats my boyfreind Chris" gods it makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it oh well it's gotta be don some time Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
12:13 pm	This years AC Hi Hi hi all well heres my part on keeping more active I made it to this years AC (AnthroCon) it was my first con ever and Goddess was it a blast I got to meet lots of furs, and went to a couple work shops and just had a ton of fun It was almost ruined though cause my foxy almost couldn't come.... on th last day Sus (a freind) and Trir (foxy's bro) smuggled him down for one day... oh and one night *wink* Me at the con LOL not my best outfit Squeeeee my foxy Yumny Me And Foxy Some folks say we're a cute couple *grins* Bunny Blu a new freind Michele Gange This was one of the guests of honor I got a copy of his insanly twisted rabbits boo and he even sketched a lil bunny in it for me Leo Magna This was Leo... an ex of mine we didn't part on the best of terms but when we ran into one another he pretended nothing happened so... I went along with it Some of my swag from the con 1 2 here are some of the fursuits I spotted... there were more but I'll post those later if anybunny is interested Roxi Zig Zag Puppy Random Ohh I can't find my piccy of twitch I'll post it later till then later hons Current Mood: touched (2 Comments |Comment on this)